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The Real Battle

For some weeks (even years, off and on), I had been burdened, even depressed, about two people close to me who seemed unconcerned about going to heaven, knowing and loving Jesus, and really are agnostic or atheist. I wondered if they had not come to faith through some fault in my own witness or character. I tried hard to show them love, and hopefully through my love, and the genuine love of other Christians, they might see their need for Jesus. At times when I got more explicit and asked about having a personal relationship with Jesus, it didn’t go as I’d hoped.

Then one day while pondering all this, this Scripture popped into my head: “For we are not fighting against flesh-and-blood enemies, but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world, against mighty powers in this dark world, and against evil spirits in the heavenly places (Ephesians 6:12, NLT).” Suddenly I saw it all in a new way. This is not a battle between myself and others, but it’s a battle against evil forces that have influenced others negatively or even destructively. I even fight these battles within myself at times.

So, once again Scripture has set me free of a burden that I wasn’t meant to bear, at least the burden of blaming myself. Yes, I will pray and try to act on promptings from the Holy Spirit to share Jesus, but the outcome is not up to me.

Arrested Twice?

No, I’ve never been arrested, but …

It almost happened — twice.

I was attending a wedding in Oakland, California, and needed a place to stay that night. My sister and her husband offered their house in nearby Alameda, and they happened to be away that night. I arrived at the house and was supposed to enter on my own. She and her husband had neglected to tell me that there was an alarm system installed in the house, but they HAD provided a key. So, I innocently unlocked the door, and soon heard the automatic alarm go off.

My first thought was to call them. I had no idea how to turn the alarm off. I could not get ahold of them, so tried some of their friends. The friends may have told me how to do it, but by that time, the police had been alerted. I’m pretty sure I had it off by the time a police car parked nearby.

I noticed him park, and he very slowly and cautiously came toward the house. I had the front door open and spoke through the screen door and may even have opened it. I don’t think he had a gun drawn, but looked ready to if necessary. It took me awhile to explain that it was my sister’s house and I was staying for the night, but my sister hadn’t told me about the alarm system. He was very suspicious in the beginning, but after about fifteen or twenty minutes, I guess he believed me. I seem to recall giving him both my sister’s and their friends’ phone numbers. I assume he called them to check my story. Phew!

The second incident occurred on the campus of Stanford University in Palo Alto, California. Through a prayer group, I had connected with a student Bible Study there, though I was not a student. On this occasion, it happened to be a recess between quarters.

The Bible Study leader or facilitator was a (graduate?) student there. He always unlocked or had access to the Old Union building (number 29 on the current campus map). Being between quarters, we couldn’t get in at the usual door, but we found a back door. As we climbed the stairs to the meeting room, I heard some computer beeping that I didn’t recall hearing on other occasions there. The building seemed empty but for us.

We got to the meeting room and opened our Bibles on the table as we sat around it, and began the study. After five or ten minutes, we thought we heard voices, which grew louder. Pretty soon, we heard, even louder, “Put your hands up and stand still; no talking.” We were startled and puzzled, but after a short pause, realized that we had better cooperate.

As I recall, there were two of the campus police. They were dead serious. They took each person’s name, address, phone, and driver’s license number (if we could remember it while we standing with our hands up). We explained that we had a Bible Study there every week, and surely they could see the open Bibles on the table.

The problem for them seemed to be that since it was quarter break, we should not be there. They asked us to leave, which we did. That was the end of that.

So, besides a few traffic tickets, these have been my experiences of “a brush with the law.” Or does an IRS audit count? (The audit found no problem.) Pretty fortunate, I’d say.

The Ohio Difference

It’s almost four years now, since we moved from the south San Francisco Bay Area in California, to Ohio. It’s been a challenge, mostly emotionally, but I think well worth it. Some observations on the differences are noted below.

The biggest for me: WEATHER. While the Bay Area climate is quite mellow, a Mediterranean climate, here in Ohio the weather constantly changes. In the Bay Area I could garden almost all year. I could go for pleasant walks most of the year. I suppose in Ohio I can go for pleasant walks in the winter, but It’s more difficult with multiple layers of clothes, and sometimes ice.

CLOUDS: In Ohio, the clouds are amazing, almost every time they appear, which is often. Absolutely stunning at times.

CHIGGERS: In the Bay Area, I didn’t have to worry about almost-invisible chiggers (or maybe they are no-see-ums). I dread going out the backyard, where they seem very happy to congregate, in warmer weather. I have numerous methods to deal with them, including bug spray with peppermint, and showering immediately after a stint in the garden. Otherwise, it’s an itchy prospect.

CICADAS: Now these are midwest bugs I can deal with. You can see them, they don’t bite or cause an itch, and generally leave you alone. They appear in May and wind down in mid-June. Yes, they buzz all day, but I don’t mind it.

COST OF LIVING: Much cheaper in Ohio. I estimate that the house we have now would cost ten times as much in our old neighborhood.

FREEWAY ON-RAMPS: In California, a simple on-ramp (not merging into an off ramp) is marked at the left with dashed lines, which *disappear* at about the point when the combined width of the on-ramp and the lane to the left is about a lane-and-a-half wide. In Ohio, the dashed lines for simple on-ramps just continue until they contact the right edge of the road.

FRIENDLINESS / HELPFULNESS: People seem friendlier than in the Bay Area. It could be because we’re in a less densely populated place. Once (but this is nearby Kentucky), we were driving home at night and pulled over because I couldn’t find my cell phone. Almost immediately, a truck stopped behind us, and two men came up and asked if we needed help. I realize that something far less pleasant could have happened, but it was an encouraging experience.

FENCES: In our old Bay Area neighborhood, just about everyone had a six-foot tall fence around their back yard, some even taller. In our current neighborhood, we have a six-foot fence in the back, but there are only one or two other families around, one of which I know to be California transplants like us, who have something similar. Most people have no fencing, invisible dog fencing, what’s called a Kentucky board fence, or a split rail fence.

“UC”: Does not mean “University of California,” but “University of Cincinnati”.

God’s Planning

I just want give a praise report.

Even though I’m 70, I still don’t have the self-confidence I’d like to, and so was nervous about being at least half responsible for my daughter’s bridal shower. I prayed a lot, but there were one or two nights when I kept worrying that it would all fall apart.

Well, the prayers definitely worked, and it went off beautifully. I only have God to thank, and the maid of honor and another friend of my daughter’s. The groom’s mom was also very supportive. I just can’t believe how well it went, even the weather. A week earlier, snow and rain had been predicted. Instead, we had a pleasant, partly sunny day.

Afterwards, there was a dinner at a Mexican restaurant. Not all the people from the shower were to come, but I had reserved for 20. When I arrived at the restaurant, I was about to tell the waiter that it had changed to twelve. Then two young ladies showed up, saying, “We made it, after all.” So I told the waiter, “Table for 14, please.” Even so, there were two empty chairs. Then I found out that my husband and the other dad were going to be coming, which I had not known. So we had exactly the right number of chairs.

I have never liked to plan social things, so I consider that the Lord orchestrated everything to work out. For days I was amazed at how well things worked. Thanks be to God!

Climate Change?

THIS MORNING:

I had a feeling that everything was fine with me: physically, spiritually, emotionally, and financially. It was blissful. Then I woke up! 😅😂🤣

I said to my husband, “Hey, it’s 24 (F) degrees out; not too bad.” He was amazed that I would say that. Actually, if it’s sunny, no wind, and you have the right clothes, that’s true. This ex-San Francisco Bay Area girl has come a long way! 🥶🥶🥶❄️❄️❄️

On Turning 70

By God’s grace, I’ve made it thus far.

Parents who first pointed me to God.

Mentors, who shared their wisdom with me.

Rescued from the Moonie cult after two weeks.

Two times had cancer, caught early. Two times in hospital with kidney stones. Doctors and nurses who cared.

Two wonderful children, and three grandchildren so far.

33 years of marriage.

Depression, anxiety, handled with faith, prayer, and therapy.

Friends and family who’ve stood by me.

All grace.

The Black Wedding Dress

I recently went shopping with my daughter and two others for her wedding dress. It was a very happy occasion, and a pleasant time to spend with her, and to socialize with one of her best friends and my daughter-in-law. Also, the matron of honor, who lives quite a distance away, was intermittently present through Facetime video.

We had appointments at three bridal shops throughout the day, with a luncheon before the third appointment. The third shop advertised itself as “a designer sample bridal boutique…. stocking the best sample wedding dresses at a fraction of the cost.” My daughter didn’t intend to buy a dress that day, but at this third shop, the combination of an excellent price and most of the features she wanted in a wedding dress clinched the deal.

As we were leaving the shop, she spotted a dress that had a black lacy top layer over an off-white or beige layer. My daughter teasingly said, “What would you do if I bought that dress?” I don’t recall exactly, but I probably said something like, “No way!”

This all brought up memories of my mom telling me the story of her wedding. She and my dad met in an Austrian refugee camp (Ranshofen), run by Americans, during World War II. It was in Braunau am Inn, the town where Hitler was born. I don’t have many details of their wedding, and there are no pictures. However, my mom did tell me that she got married in a black dress, probably the best dress she had. She spoke about the black dress in a melancholy voice. I don’t know if the witnesses were people they had become friends with, or relative strangers. And it must have been in a church.

When I told the bridal sales helper and all the bridal dress party about my mom’s black dress, the helper said, “We all do the best we can with what we’ve been given.” What a thoughtful comment!

[Realistically, though, we might not always do our best, but our worst, subconsciously or consciously. Out of anger, we may sabotage ourselves or others. But still, many people heroically make do with what the world regards as very little — materially, at least. Loving families can do a lot to make up for a lack of material goods.]

How blessed I was for my wedding, and my daughter is, for happier and more prosperous times. But my mom did the best she could at the time and many times after that, and I love her for that.

Let the little children …

Some people have a lot more appreciation of children than I do. Part of that may be my upbringing, or the feeling that, though children can be delightful, they create a lot of work. Put it down to my laziness, perhaps, which is one of my many faults. Also, I was not raised with a strong work ethic, as many are fortunate to have been. Or even, perhaps, because I don’t know/have the best childrearing skills, I find it difficult at times.

Fast forward to my current life. Having had the blessing of two children in California, one who is in her late twenties and the other in his early thirties, my husband and I moved to Ohio three years ago to be near them and our grandchildren. Being in my late sixties, I envisioned a life of relative ease, compared to when I was a full time mom/homemaker, who volunteered and did some part time paid work.

It has turned out that I work a lot harder than some other periods of my life. I’m growing vegetables in our backyard. I grow a lot of these from seed, in our basement, and when I grow too many, I pot them up and give them away. I do a lot of the other garden work, except lawn mowing, and large shrub and tree trimming. Of course, there’s house cleaning and laundry, and washing dishes by hand, since our dishwasher is not working correctly. I do some cooking, but not every day, and we are fortunate to be able to eat out sometimes. We also have two cats, one of which requires medicine twice a day. Church and volunteering takes up some time, about 10-12 hours per week. There are other day to day tasks, and somewhat frequent doctor appointments, averaging once or twice a week.

The other added task — or opportunity, or blessing, to put it positively — is helping watch our three current grandchildren. I rarely do this alone, but usually with my husband or with the other grandparents. Even with their help, I find it very tiring at times, but also rewarding.

So, a few days ago, while anticipating the fun and the work, I was partly excited and partly grumbly. Part of me wanted a nice quiet, peaceful day. I kept praying for a better attitude, and the Lord answered me by putting a Scripture verse in my head: “but Jesus said, “Let the little children come to me, and do not stop them; for it is to such as these that the kingdom of heaven belongs.”” (Matthew 19:14). I knew then that I could count on God’s help, and that He was, and is, changing my attitude for the better.

Date Night Near the Little Miami

My husband and I decided we’d like a night out at a nice restaurant which we go to occasionally.  It is situated right on the Little Miami River in Ohio, with some outdoor seating.  

It was Saturday, and as we approached, I said, “Wait, it’s Saturday after 6, probably crowded, and they probably have their amplified music.” We don’t like amplified music at meals because it’s hard to hear each other when talking.  And as we drew near, the parking lot was full to overflowing, so we passed by. We would go again on a slower night, because the food is excellent.

So, what next?  I saw a sign for the Schoolhouse Restaurant.  It’s a unique place, sometimes with long waits, but not always.  I said, “Want to go there?” and my husband agreed.

We entered and asked the person at the front, “How long is the wait?” 

The man answered, “I can make it as long as you want!”

Actually, unlike two other times, we got seated pretty quickly.

Two special things about this restaurant:

1) It’s a real old schoolhouse, built in the 1860s.  The menu is on a chalkboard on one wall of the restaurant.  There are many schoolroom artifacts, such as maps, a globe, and pictures of Washington and Lincoln.

2) The food is served family style, meaning you do order an entree, but then everyone in your party shares the side dishes of coleslaw, salad, mashed potatoes, kernel corn, green beans, and corn bread with butter.

Near the end of our meal, I noticed a first responder talking to a woman two tables away.  Emergency vehicles had quietly arrived, and apparently she was having a health issue.

On leaving the restaurant, we saw a fire engine, an ambulance, and a sheriff’s car outside, all blocking our egress.  No problem, we were not in a hurry.  I went for a walk and my husband stayed in the car.

Shortly before the emergency vehicles cleared out, I saw the distressed woman walking with an officer, so I guess she was somewhat okay.

Always an adventure when you go out for the evening!

Home Sweet Home!

Some interesting observations of southwest Ohio, in contrast to my previous home in the SF Bay Area, California.

1) If you want to hire someone for certain services, like tree trimming, gutter cleaning, lawn mower tune up, HVAC service, etc., expect to wait 6 to 8 weeks until the people are available. This may have to do with weather fluctuations and/or lack of personnel. You will eventually come up in the queue and they will give you a ring.

2) Some towns allow golf carts to drive on non-major roads.

3) People in my neighborhood WAVE TO EACH OTHER 90% of the time, whether you’re both walking, both in cars, or one of each. I even had a police officer wave at me. 😊

4) When you apologize for what you think might be a mistake, people say, “You’re good!”

5) This neighborhood is super quiet, except when there are occasions for fireworks. Some nearby neighbors had a lot of cars at their house (party?), but it was the quietest event I never heard. Also, there seems to be a gun range nearby, but I haven’t figured out where.

6) It’s definitely bug season now, as I have about ten bites at the moment. Thank God for Caladryl (calamine lotion)!